I never knew I could hate it here so much. Don't get me wrong, I love Southern California, it's an incredibly diverse place, from the people, to the geography, to the astounding amount of things to do, places to go, and sites to see. But there's something missing. I guess I've been aware of this for the last few months, but it's really hitting me hard now.
I'm locked into living in Southern California for the next year, and as much as I love it, without this part that's missing, it seems like a waste of time. I've realized it's because I want to share all the things that I love with her. I want to take her to Big Bear and have a completely different feeling than when I take her to Disneyland. I want to take her to Vegas and have a completely different feeling than when I take her to San Diego.
I want her to see the things that used to make me content with my life.
Because I also want her to see that knowing how she makes me feel, how happy I am, the only thing that could make me complete is being with her.
Happiness is so relative when pieces of your puzzle are missing.
ReplyDeleteMay 20 is so far away...and i miss you now.
yesterday was the best day I've ever had.
You are amazing.
<3